I've been doing some serious thinking since I first started smoking again. The first cig was nasty but that nicotene buzz hit me for the first time and ever since then it's been hard to see enough of a reason not to smoke. Basically I forgot how bad it is for you. Since that first smoke, I've bought 3 packs. First pack I smoked like 5-6 and threw the rest away but then a couple days later I wanted a cig. Finally I broke down and got another pack and did the same thing. Same thing all over, I wanted some so I got some and then I threw them away.

First thing I did today was smoke a cig. I started to smoke one a while ago and I was just disgusted at myself so I put it out. I'm really REALLY hoping that it was my last one.