I've smoked marijuana a few times in college, and a few times since. The most recent time was about three or four years ago (the dorito incident). I definately smoked with the intent of feeling it, and I did. By the time we had finished the bag, the novelty had worn off and we pretty much figured we had our fun.

As for beer, wine or sangria. If I have a six-pack in the fridge, it'll last all summer. Scotch, on the other hand, goes well with a movie on Friday night. Do I know it's a drug? Yes. Do I need it? No, there's plenty of times when I'll say "Damn...what a day! I need a scotch!" and go home & drink tea. A few times a year we get looped and stumble upstairs to screw (or try), and usually end up regretting it the next morning. No, ya big sillies...not the screwing!

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.