*grrrs at oneself* I replied to all you folks and instead of pressing submit I pressed reset.
steph : I too can understand wanting to unwind etc, I do it myself but for 10 hours? when he has someone here to love him and who wants to love him. *big sighs* I'd be happy if he just spent one of those hours with me and just lay in bed and held me, as for sex well I'd be happy just to be held at the moment. Yes I am going to start going out without him and enjoy it! thanks for your advice
osuche : hehe I too have thought about thing to do with his computer but you see we have 2 of them, his is brand new and in the study and mine in the bedroom (we both had one when we moved in together) I have often thought about accidently shorting his computer out "oops sorry honey but I accidently spilt my drink through the vents in the back of your harddrive, silly me" lol
babybunny : awww thanks
hmm you would take care of me? am I think what your thinking? lol
seriousfun : Yes I agree, if he were able to see through my eyes he would be scared of what he see's and he would see how unhappy I am. He knows how it makes me feel and he knows it upsets me and I know he feels guilty for that but obviously his addicted for those things is far more than his addiction for me *sob sob*. I don't think that 25 is that young to be hooked on someone, I do agree though that it's not a age where I would consider settling down forever with him and besides I'd never even get carried away with the thought of marriage etc with him whilst he is so into this, If I ever marry it will be because I know this person cares enough for me to want to spend time with me and show me they love me, it doesn't take much to do that. thanks
Casper : lol thank you and yeah I remember
He knows exactly how I feel, I've left him twice before because of it! Done the letters etc, done everything bar get him "electric shocked" lol thanks for the hugs and advice.
Well guys and girls thanks again for all the advice and hugs etc. It is good to get others thoughts although I guess I knew all along this just isn't right and I also know what is going to have to happen. I hate hurting and I hate hurting people but sometimes in life that's the way it is right?. Lets just hope that it doesn't come to that. Thanks again all
PS if I didn't reply to anyone in here I am sorry, the brain tends to strain at night.