fyi, if you care...

my next treatment is friday. and godDAMN these two weeks went by way too fast. i had a chemo-hangover for about 5 days, mostly from the "pre-meds" and the mild queasiness went away about then, too. still dealing with headaches and heartburn. totally tolerable though. and i actually have something to report that relates to this site! my sex drive is fffffffft. it's not a chore, by any means, but i just ain't feelin frisky. and when i do get to orgasm, it's lame. lacking somehow. not sure if that's a state of mind thing or side effect or a bit of both. sucks though. food tastes a little better, but still not quite right. i switched to baking soda mouthwash, instead of salt, to help with the little mouth sores i get and that seems to have helped some. and i still have my hair! but i suspect it will be gone in about a week. which, i admit, i don't know how i'll feel about. i handled being suddenly boobless pretty well already so i figure the hair should be easy. then again it's so ... right there.

i am going to ask my doc to fiddle with the pre-med dosages, see if i can't get that druggy feeling to go away a wee bit earlier. you see, it's not a good druggy - like a la-la i am happy to be on drugs druggy - more like a fuzzy, can't focus, short tempered, bad trip, jane stop this crazy thing druggy. drugs, drugs everywhere, and not a drop to cheer.

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some fairly sordid tales, rambles, and anecdotes
Hypothetically Speaking * Something More * Cammy Interrupted * An Experimental Vacation * Masked * so..damn..hot * Thank You * My toy, his idea * no.19 Maple Lane * I Have A Surprise For You * Yesterday * In a Quiet Kitchen * help me decide * untitled prose * more untitled prose