if you were abused for a year (as you state) by your ex - examine that... learn from it... overcome it and stop being a victim. Get professional help if necessary. Abuse is a strong word, and I hope you aren't using it lightly.

I might be wrong, as I'm a single-ton - but I don't think the "perfect boyfriend" exists, all people have flaws and I'm certain you did/do as well. You were not perfect and never will be. Nor will any woman be perfect and you shouldn't expect her to be either.