Hey,

I've felt similar things to you before, though not quite to that extent, I don't think.

For me, it helped to acknowledge to myself that these things I was telling myself and others were not true. They were a product of hurt feelings and anxiety, not of anything supported by evidence or logic, and nor is what you are saying. I think you probably realise this, too, but you need to acknowledge that. When you feel bad about what happened, remind yourself that these thoughts that your fears have formed in your head, although real, are illogical and should play as little part as possible in the decisions you make in your daily life. It's not easy, but if you continue to behave as if what you are saying is really true, you'll be going down a path that will lead you to REAL despair. Don't want that? Good

In short, recognize the smell of your own bullshit and don't believe it. Call its bluff.

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